I ran today. It was a beautiful (somewhat windy), sunny day and it felt great to be outside.
It was a huge contrast to the last two runs that I had.
On Thursday, I ran the TC 1 Mile race. Last year I finished in 7:42 and my goal for this year was to finish in 7:41 or less. Despite feeling like I was running all-out, I finished at 8:16, more than 30 seconds slower than last year's finish. It killed me. Mentally, I think it really broke me.
Saturday's 18 mile run was brutal. I don't think I felt good until I was done. I had to make a port-a-potty stop at mile 5. I had to stop and put band-aids on my feet at mile 6. I had a little emotional breakdown at mile 12. I walked entirely too much for all of miles 13-18. Then again, I finished, so I know I should be happy. I've mentioned before that I felt like I had a mental block about doing the longer distances. I could see myself running 15-16 miles, but nothing more than that. So combine that with my really disappointing 1 Mile time... it was a recipe for disaster.
So where do I go from here? I'm not sure how it'll go. But maybe it's a good lesson for me to remember as the marathon gets closer. I'm going to go through a myriad of emotions during the marathon. At some moments I'll feel absolutely wonderful and at some moments I'll feel like I can't move another inch forward. I have to remember that every moment of the marathon will bring something new.
A friend posted this video today (after recently finishing her first marathon!) and it was a good reminder (and also slightly entertaining!) to help me keep in mind that things will not always be pretty, but I can get to the finish line nonetheless.
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